Ellie found it very difficult at first due to the language barrier and the fact she saw a lot less of her mother Lorraine. Ellie was already a very accomplished skier and after several months Ellie broke through the language barrier and fully embraced living in the Alps.
When Ellie was 12 years old she had taken up snowboarding at school and was spotted by the GB snowboard squad who invited her to trial for them. It soon became very obvious that Ellie had a natural talent on a snowboard and within one month of being on the GB Elite junior squad became British champion.
I as a father I new nothing about snowboarding and just let her progress as she wanted with out any parental pressure, but loads of support as I was so proud of what she was achieving.
As Ellie moved up the rankings, so did the cost of maintaining her competitive coaching. Ellie was acutely aware that funding from the bank of dad was stretching my financial resources to uncomfortable limits but I always said to her that I really would not do it if I didn’t want to. I spent hundreds of hours trying to raise funding for her and all the time you see your daughter enjoying a sport so much and achieving in it, it just made me so proud so I was not going to change.
The pressure Ellie put on her self to succeed was immense. This would have been due to being fully aware of the sacrifices I had made as a father and the unbelievable kindness of private sponsors, family and friends. As a now teenager all of Ellie’s friends were out partying as you do at 16, 17 years old, but this was something that Ellie found extremely difficult to deal with. Being an elite athlete you are often away training for weeks on end during a winter competitive season and 3 months in the southern hemisphere during the summer, not able to associate with close friends. So when you are in their company you want to hang out with them as much as possible but in reality can’t be seen to be doing this. Ellie being the fun loving free spirited young lady she was found this almost unfair.
One thing that really concerned me was the fact that she had suffered four concussions over the last four years, each time becoming worse. I took advice each time from doctors and even neurologists as to whether there was any long term effects that should make us call an end to her snowboarding career but was told as long as she took the correct amount of time to fully recover Ellie was at an age that should not cause any long term effects.
Unfortunately it now appears this certainly was not the case and in November 2017 Ellie suffered a bout of severe depression now thought to be brought on by concussion. At the time thought and possibly in addition due to making decisions of whether to concentrate on schooling and becoming a normal teenager or continue with the pressures of being an elite athlete forfeiting normal teenage life, a full education and all the negative jealous social media that goes along with being in that position. Plus risking further injury that could put a stop to it all in a heartbeat.
Ellie decided to push on with what she loved the most Snowboarding, however without funding was unable to train and compete in the capacity that she should have doing.
Only competing in the Junior Freeride World Tour and World Championships in which as a doting dad I trailed all over Europe with her to enable her to keep up a profile a professional athlete.
In March 2018 Ellie at such a competition in Les Arcs suffered another mild but painful concussion and had to take another 30 days off Snow. Whilst Ellie was rehabilitating at home she picked up a huge corporate sponsor in the name of Carne Group which would enable her to train and compete for the next four years taking her right up to the Winter Olympics 2022. Two weeks later Ellie Was picked up by POC the leading Ski and Snowboard helmet and body protection company.
At the End of April Ellie entered The Natural Games France in the her first Boardercross race of the season unfortunately in a training run suffering a massive concussion and was air lifted to hospital were she spent three days. On arrival at home Ellie had a package From POC with the latest most advance helmet in.
This was now a make our break decision as to whether or not Ellie could ever race again and after 90 days of rehabilitation was tested by a leading Neurologist in Grenoble and given the all clear.
This said Ellie was under no elusion that she never wanted to feel like that again. Ellie was then selected for Team GB in the World Snowboard Championships New Zealand in August and started Glacier training with the squad.
After accidentally missing a flight to a training camp Ellie took her own life on 25th July 2018 her 18th Birthday.
Two weeks after her death Boston University wrote to me asking if they could do a biopsy on part of Ellie’s brain as an article was published in the USA stating that Ellie was possibly the 4th Freeskier to of taken her own life in that year, Like NFL players most likely due to suffering CTE.
Unfortunately Ellie’s funeral had already taken place and Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE) is a degenerative brain disease found in athletes and others with a history of repetitive brain trauma.
When I read the papers written by a leading neurologist at Boston University I was shocked to find Ellie had been suffering all and more of the symptoms.
“I miss you so much every day Ellie and pray you are in a better place.”
All my love Dad xx
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